As long as I can remember I have always had someone in my life pushing me to be incredible. Whether it was my mom or dad, a Band Director, coach, tutor, trusted mentor, peer, or friend; I have always had someone in my life who believed in me. Someone always believed that I could be somebody one day, that I would be somebody one day, and that I had the potential to do something great. Whether or not I actually believed in myself and my own abilities was never a real concern to me. By virtue of everyone else's belief I believed. I was sold. Whatever dreams or desires I expressed, there was always someone to support me. There were always people in my life lifting me up and encouraging me to excel.
As a look back on my life, I find that there were also always incredibly supportive people in my life daring me to dream, to be ambitious, to work harder, to give it my all, and to never settle for less. The male role model, father figure type that I desperately craved throughout my adolescence especially after my mother and father's separation constantly encompassed itself in several men throughout my journey who have made tremendous impacts in my life. Their influence, their encouragement, and their wholehearted belief in me and my gifts and abilities are the reasons I have become the man that I am today.
Their unwavering support and relentless spirits instilled in me an immense belief in myself that has not retreated to this day. Looking back at my 20 years of existence I have come to the amazing understanding that throughout my life I was taught that I would be incredible. And now at the beginning of the year 2008 I am finally ready. I want it more than anything in the world. I can taste it. I eat, sleep, and breathe it. I know that it is coming and that I am so desperately close I can feel it. That day is near and finally I am at a point where I am truly ready to accept it. Ladies and gentlemen, brace yourselves, I am ready to be incredible!
I am at a beautiful place in my life right now where I am growing and evolving at such a rapid pace and things that were once so confusing to me are now becoming crystal clear. I now understand that the events leading up to this point in my life, both good and bad, have all have been strategically placed in my life in preparation for my divine purpose and ultimate destination.
It's fascinating how throughout much of my life I was often made to feel like an outcast, like something was wrong with me, like I didn't belong, that I didn't fit in, essentially that I was different from other people and not in a positive way. I felt like it was my awkwardness that made me that way, but now I understand more than I ever have, that my differences, my so-called weaknesses, are the very things that shaped me into the person I am today. They are the very things that will make me great.
For a long time I fought these feelings of inadequacy attempting to silence them in any way that I could. The harder I fought, it seemed as if the larger they became. But as a I have continued to grow on this journey we call life I am learning to accept and appreciate these things as part of the incredible and wonderfully made person that I am....Rodney Kendell Nickens Jr.
Throughout the trials and tribulations that I have had to overcome, the personal insecurities, confidence issues, the lack of true self awareness, the egotism, the arrogance, the control issues, the lack of true self esteem, the jealousy, the hatred, the disappointment by family and friends, everything that I have had to go through. I AM FINALLY TRULY AND COMPLETELY OVER IT!! I'm done with that chapter and I am ready to turn the page of the story of my life and truly embrace my destiny.
I am ready for God to use me in every way necessary as a vessel for His work. I am ready to answer my calling for this world.
All of the corruption, the unsolvable problems, the many issues and concerns, the injustices, the atrocities, the hatred, the war, the crimes must all cease. And you better believe I am going to have something to do with eradicating them. I am embracing my mission in life. I am ready to accept my destiny. I am ready to change the world. It is now time for me to stand.
Sincerely,
RKNJ
2 comments:
inspiring...
you have always been incredible just so you know!!!!!!!!!!
but i am over joyed to know that you have come to this great place in your life. Happiness is what life is about and if we didn't have our past we wouldn't be who we are today. I can honstely say that Rodney you are a true inspiration of self and knowledge. I think that more than anything whever ever you go or whatever you do you will be blessed. You are a force to be reckoned with big cousin and i love you so much for who you are. I admire you for your strenthe and wisdom b/c those things are not defined by all the good things that happen to us but all the bag things we went through but got back up again. You have gotten up so many times when you could have just sat and took no chances. but you did take chances and make risks. I am beyond proud of everything you do and everything you are, and i have always been proud of you!I am sorry that i work so much and we never get to see each other. but my positive thoughts and blessings are always with you i hope you never forget that. i loooooove you!!! take care!
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